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Yunho laid there, on the bed, the phone still hanging on his left hand though the grip he had on it was loose now, but still, he didn't want to let it go. Yunho berbaring di sana, di ranjang, telepon masih tergantung di tangan kiri pegangan walaupun dia pada itu lepas sekarang, tapi tetap saja, dia tidak ingin membiarkannya pergi.
His mind was still trying to register what had happened. Pikirannya masih mencoba mendaftar apa yang telah terjadi.

Though it was simple, Jaejoong got a bofriend and Jaejoong put an end to their...What was the word already, relationship ? Walaupun sederhana, Jaejoong punya bofriend dan Jaejoong mengakhiri mereka ... Apa kata sudah, hubungan?
Anyway, what they had was over now, it was a fact. Lagi pula, apa yang mereka sudah berakhir sekarang, itu adalah fakta.

But still...He needed some time to register that information fully. Tetapi masih ... Dia butuh waktu untuk mendaftarkan informasi yang sepenuhnya. It did not feel right, he just could not get himself to believe that Jaejoong was so in love with someone, he could not picture him being so in love with that guy. Rasanya tidak benar, dia tidak bisa sendiri untuk percaya bahwa Jaejoong begitu cinta dengan seseorang, dia tidak bisa membayangkan dia begitu cinta dengan cowok itu.
But he could not deny it, he sensed by the tone of his voice all the emotions that flowed freely out of his heart, he heard it, it just felt as wrong to deny his feelings. Tapi ia tidak bisa menyangkalnya, ia merasakan dari nada suaranya semua emosi yang mengalir bebas dari dalam hatinya, ia mendengar itu, ia hanya merasa sebagai salah untuk menyangkal perasaannya.

But what will they become ? Tapi apa yang akan mereka menjadi? Only friends again ?...No it just didn't feel right, he could not get himself to agree to that idea. Hanya teman-teman lagi? ... Tidak hanya tidak merasa benar, ia tidak bisa sendiri untuk menyetujui gagasan itu.
Slowly he loosened his grip on the phone more and more until it just slipped out of his hand. Perlahan ia melonggarkan cengkeramannya pada telepon lebih dan lebih sampai hanya tergelincir dari tangannya.
He let escape a tired sigh, nothing felt right. Dia membiarkan lolos mendesah lelah, tidak merasa benar.

His hand, he was staring at it, he could still recall the silkiness of Jaejoong's skin agaisnt his palm, his hand running softly and smoothly onto his sweaty and hot body, touching every curves, caressing and teasing, it was a feeling he really liked, a feeling he grew addicted to. tangan-Nya, ia sedang menatap itu, dia masih bisa mengingat berseri-seri dari agaisnt kulit Jaejoong's telapak tangannya, tangannya berjalan pelan dan lancar ke berkeringat dan tubuhnya panas, menyentuh setiap kurva, membelai dan menggoda, itu merasa dia benar-benar menyukai , merasa ia tumbuh kecanduan.
So what now ? Jadi apa sekarang? He will never be able to feel it again ?...Will that guy be allowed to feel it instead ? Dia tidak akan pernah bisa merasakan lagi ... Apakah yang orang diizinkan untuk merasakannya bukan?

His fists instantly clenched. Nya langsung tinju terkepal.
His fingers now reached his lips almost trembling, and the feeling of Jaejoong's ones on his instantly revived. Jari-jarinya kini mencapai bibirnya hampir gemetar, dan perasaan orang-orang yang Jaejoong di nya langsung kembali. He could still remember how they first kissed, he could still remember the first shy and anticiping movements of his lips to only become more and more dareful more and more experimented and way more pleasuring. Dia masih ingat bagaimana mereka pertama kali mencium, dia masih bisa mengingat gerakan pemalu dan anticiping pertama bibirnya hanya menjadi lebih dan lebih dareful lebih banyak dan lebih bereksperimen dan cara yang lebih memuaskan. His fingertips were rubbing onto his lower lip, yes, he could definitively remember. ujung jari-Nya itu menggosok ke bibir bawahnya, ya, ia definitif bisa mengingat.

And it was as clear as the feeling of his limbs which were shivering under his caresses, which extorted him soft moans and later, constant whimpers. Dan jelas karena merasakan tubuhnya yang menggigil di bawah belaian, yang diperas dia lembut erangan dan kemudian, merintih konstan.
He could still picture himself taking hold of his hips to lure him closer, to mix their two skins so that they will only make one, and soflty, making him his. Dia masih bisa membayangkan dirinya memegang pinggulnya untuk memancing dia lebih dekat, untuk campuran dua kulit mereka sehingga mereka hanya akan membuat satu, dan soflty, membuatnya Nya.

His nails were now tracing bright red marks on his palms as he imagined someone else feeling the softness of his mouth, as he imagined someone else touching him, as he imagined someone else making him moan and whimper, as he imagined someone else making him his. Kukunya sekarang menelusuri tanda merah di telapak tangannya saat dia membayangkan orang lain merasakan kelembutan dari mulutnya, karena ia membayangkan orang lain menyentuhnya, karena ia membayangkan orang lain membuat dia mengerang dan merintih, ketika dia membayangkan orang lain membuat dia nya .

It made him sick, this all thing made him sick. Hal itu membuat dia sakit, semua hal ini membuatnya sakit.
The more he tried to imagine Jaejoong with an other man, the more images of two of them together were occuring to him, the pleasure they gave each other had become something almost casual, he just could not imagine it to be put to an end. Semakin ia mencoba membayangkan Jaejoong dengan orang lain, lebih banyak gambar mereka berdua yang terjadi padanya, kesenangan yang mereka berikan satu sama lain telah menjadi sesuatu yang hampir santai, ia tidak bisa membayangkan itu harus dihukum berakhir.

His hands fell almost instantly on his belt, unbuckling it, like so many times he did in Jaejoong's presence. Tangannya jatuh hampir seketika di ikat pinggangnya, unbuckling itu, seperti begitu banyak kali dia di hadapan Jaejoong's.
He slightly gazed at the lower part of his body, only slight thoughts of those nights, of those lips, of that body, made him in such a state. Ia sedikit menatap bagian bawah tubuhnya, hanya sedikit pikiran malam-malam, dari bibir itu, tubuh itu, membuatnya dalam keadaan tersebut.

His hands were not trembling,his movements were unsure. Tangannya tidak gemetar, gerakan-nya tidak yakin. It was uncommon, especially for someone like he was, but he truly could not tell what he was doing. Itu biasa, khususnya bagi seseorang seperti dia, tapi ia benar-benar tidak tahu apa yang dia lakukan.
He did not feel lost, no boy could feel lost doing such a thing afterall. Dia tidak merasa tersesat, tidak ada anak laki-laki bisa merasakan kehilangan melakukan seperti hal afterall. No, that was not how he felt, but, contrarily to all the previous times he had done this, it felt weird, yeah, it was definitively a weird feeling. Tidak, itu tidak bagaimana perasaannya, tetapi, sebaliknya untuk semua saat sebelumnya ia telah melakukan ini, rasanya aneh, ya, itu definitif perasaan aneh. Touching himself thinking of Jaejoong...It only felt weird. Menyinggung dirinya memikirkan Jaejoong ... Itu hanya merasa aneh.

It was not, of course, the first time he did it, far from it . Bukan, tentu saja, ketika pertama kali dia melakukannya, jauh dari itu.
But, since they started...Since Jaejoong accepted his proposition, and started to spend some nights with him, since they started to sleep together, to give pleasure to one another, he never did. Namun, karena mereka mulai ... Sejak Jaejoong menerima proposisi, dan mulai menghabiskan beberapa malam dengan dia, karena mereka mulai tidur bersama-sama, untuk memberi kenikmatan satu sama lain, itu tidak terjadi.

He just did not feel the need to do so anymore, he had the object of his desire at his disposition, so the very idea to give himself some pleasure that way grew pointless. Dia hanya tidak merasa perlu untuk melakukannya lagi, ia memiliki objek keinginan di disposisi, jadi ide untuk memberikan dirinya sendiri kesenangan cara yang tumbuh gunanya. Since the very day he broke the limits of their platonic relation and transformed it into a sensual one, the idea to pleasure himself by his own means just became derisory. Sejak hari itu ia mematahkan batas hubungan platonis mereka dan mengubahnya menjadi satu sensual, gagasan untuk kesenangan dirinya sendiri dengan cara sendiri hanya menjadi derisory.

Of course there was still his girlfriend, yes, his girlfriend . Tentu saja masih ada pacarnya, ya, pacarnya. He had to admit that he did not desire her any longer, he wanted only one person, one body. Dia harus mengakui bahwa ia tidak menginginkannya lagi, dia ingin hanya satu orang, satu tubuh. However he knew now that he could not have it any longer, that he will not be the one being allowed to touch him anymore, but that someone else will take his place. Namun sekarang ia tahu bahwa ia tidak bisa lebih lama lagi, bahwa dia tidak akan menjadi orang yang diizinkan untuk menyentuhnya lagi, tetapi bahwa orang lain akan mengambil tempatnya.

He had only learned that piece of news since a couple of minutes, yes, only a couple of minutes, but he was already craving for his body, he was already craving for him . Dia hanya mengetahui bahwa kabar sejak beberapa menit, ya, hanya beberapa menit, tapi ia sudah mendambakan tubuhnya, ia sudah mendambakan baginya.
The only idea to be forbidden to touch him, to no longer have the right to have him, made the anger and a strange nostalgie crawl viciously into his body. Ide hanya harus dilarang menyentuhnya, untuk tidak lagi memiliki hak untuk memiliki dia, membuat marah dan merangkak Nostalgie aneh kejam ke tubuhnya.

It was weird how his hand was moving inside of his boxer, how thoughts of Jaejoong were enclosing his mind. Aneh bagaimana tangannya bergerak dalam boxer-nya, bagaimana pikiran dari Jaejoong adalah melampirkan pikirannya. It felt as if he did an enormous jump into the past, as if he returned to the time he thought was gone when he was reduced to fantasm alone, secretly, almost like something wrong. Rasanya seolah-olah dia melakukan sebuah lompatan besar ke masa lalu, seolah-olah ia kembali ke waktu dia pikir sudah pergi ketika ia direduksi menjadi fantasm sendirian, diam-diam, hampir seperti sesuatu yang salah.

Yunho sighed quietly as his hand ran down the naked skin hidden under his boxer, it ran over his aching member and teased it to increase his already develloped arousal. Yunho mendesah pelan saat tangannya berlari menuruni kulit telanjang tersembunyi di bawah boxer-nya, itu berlari anggota sakit dan menggoda untuk meningkatkan gairah-nya sudah develloped. Images of Jaejoong kept to appear in his mind, memories of his skin, his lips, his voice. Gambar Jaejoong terus muncul dalam benaknya, kenangan kulitnya, bibirnya, suaranya. He finally allowed his fingers to trace the underside of his erection, drawing out a moan from his lips. Dia akhirnya mengizinkan jari-jarinya untuk melacak bawah ereksinya, menarik keluar erangan dari bibirnya.

He imagined Jaejoong's body movements now, how his body used to shiver under his caresses, how it shuddered under his tongue, how goose bump was easily formed when he touched special areas. Dia membayangkan Jaejoong gerakan tubuh sekarang, bagaimana tubuhnya yang digunakan untuk menggigil di bawah belaian, bagaimana itu menggigil di bawah lidah, bagaimana benjolan angsa dengan mudah terbentuk ketika dia menyentuh daerah khusus.
He absently watched his hand closed on the heated stretched skin, squeezing it slightly, he worked the pad of his thumb over the tip, already feeling it slightly covered of a slippery liquid. Dia tanpa sadar melihat tangannya menutup pada kulit menggeliat panas, meremas sedikit, ia bekerja dengan ibu jarinya di ujung, sudah merasa sedikit tertutup cairan licin.

He imagined how he used to touch him, how soft his skin used to feel, how, the more the time was passing by, the more the feeling under his hands grew hot to touch. Dia membayangkan bagaimana dia digunakan untuk menyentuhnya, betapa lembut kulitnya digunakan untuk merasa, bagaimana, semakin banyak waktu lewat, semakin merasa di bawah tangan tumbuh panas untuk disentuh. His breathing came out in quick gasps now. Napasnya terengah-engah keluar cepat sekarang. He allowed his hand to pull at the hardened member violently, feeling his head rest against the wall as his other hand joined in the ministrations. Dia membiarkan tangannya menarik-narik anggota mengeras keras, merasakan sisa kepalanya di dinding sebagai tangannya yang lain bergabung dalam pelayanannya.

He imagined, no, he remembered what he felt when he entered in him, he remembered the smashing pleasure so it was strong, the unbelievable hotness that burnt his body from the inside, the immediate daze he was submissed to, the unnameable feeling that only an ardent lust could make born in one soul, he remembered, his cries, his movements, he remembered him . Dia membayangkan, tidak, dia ingat apa yang ia rasakan ketika ia masuk dalam dirinya, ia ingat kesenangan itu menghancurkan begitu kuat, panas luar biasa bahwa tubuh membakar dari dalam, yang linglung segera ia submissed untuk, perasaan yang hanya unnameable sebuah nafsu bernafsu bisa lahir dalam satu jiwa, ia ingat, ia menangis, gerakannya, dia ingat dia.

His other hand resumed stroking at a frenzied pace, his knees growing weaker and his breath escaping between desperate gulps. sisi lain Nya kembali membelai dengan kecepatan hiruk pikuk, lututnya semakin lemah dan napasnya melarikan diri di antara teguk putus asa. Finally he could not stand the pressure anymore and felt himself climax, then, he removed his fingers and propped himself against the wall again. Akhirnya ia tidak tahan tekanan lagi dan merasa dirinya klimaks, kemudian, ia dibuang jari-jarinya dan menyandarkan diri ke dinding lagi.

He watched blankly in front of him, his eyes were not set on any special place nor any special direction, they almost looked lost. Dia melihat kosong di depannya, matanya tidak ditetapkan pada tempat khusus dan tidak ada arahan khusus, mereka hampir terlihat kalah. His previous activity instead of calming him down, only served to blur his mind some more, those images, those memories, now refused to leave him. aktivitas sebelumnya-Nya dan bukan menenangkan dia turun, hanya melayani untuk mengaburkan pikirannya lagi, gambar-gambar, kenangan, sekarang menolak untuk meninggalkannya.
Yunho did not know what to think, it happened all too fast, yes, way too fast. Yunho tidak tahu apa yang harus berpikir, hal itu terjadi terlalu cepat, ya, terlalu cepat.
He really could not think, he still felt a little dazed, his body as his mind were, and slowly, he closed his eyes, as if this gesture could keep him from thinking, from staying in that reality that felt at that moment so fake, that he hated. Dia benar-benar tidak bisa berpikir, ia masih merasa agak linglung, tubuhnya karena pikirannya itu, dan perlahan-lahan, ia memejamkan mata, seolah-olah sikap ini bisa menjaga dirinya dari berpikir, dari tinggal di bahwa realitas yang terasa saat itu begitu palsu , bahwa ia tidak suka. Maybe the night will help him to understand, maybe the night will make him wake up in a new day, where every of those shits will just vanish, yes maybe. Mungkin malam akan membantunya untuk memahami, mungkin malam akan membuatnya bangun di hari baru, di mana setiap orang buang air hanya akan lenyap, ya mungkin.

Or Not He thought as he heard the phone ring once again. Atau Tidak Dia pikir dia mendengar telepon berdering sekali lagi.

As he saw it slightly vibrating he almost smiled. Saat ia melihat sedikit bergetar dia hampir tersenyum. He thought then, that it was Jaejoong again, that the latter had called him back to say that everything was a joke, that he didn't think what he said, that he only wanted to have an excuse because he ditched him, that nothing changed. Anything . Dia berpikir kemudian, bahwa itu adalah Jaejoong lagi, bahwa yang terakhir telah memanggilnya kembali untuk mengatakan bahwa segala sesuatu adalah lelucon, bahwa ia tidak berpikir apa yang dia katakan, bahwa dia hanya ingin punya alasan karena dia membuang dia, bahwa tidak ada berubah. Apa saja. What he was going to say did not really matter. Apa dia akan mengatakan tidak terlalu penting. All he wanted was him to refute what he had affirmed earlier, all he wanted was everything to be normal again. Yang ia inginkan adalah dia untuk membantah apa yang telah ditegaskan sebelumnya, yang ia inginkan hanyalah semuanya menjadi normal kembali.

Yunho confidently tended his arm to take hold of the phone, ready to forget the previous conversation they had, his hands did not shake, neither did his body. Yunho yakin lengannya cenderung untuk memegang telepon, yang siap untuk melupakan percakapan sebelumnya mereka, tangannya tidak goyang, begitu pula tubuhnya.
He did not feel any sort of apprehention or fear. Dia tidak merasakan apa pun dari apprehention atau takut. His all being had cooled down now, and what only remained as a proof of what happened previously was the slightest anger present in him to have believed even for a second his words, to have been turned into a fool, and to have worried for nothing. Nya semua yang sudah dingin sekarang, dan apa yang hanya tersisa sebagai bukti tentang apa yang terjadi sebelumnya adalah kemarahan sedikit pun hadir dalam dirinya untuk percaya bahkan untuk kata-kata yang kedua, telah berubah menjadi bodoh, dan khawatir untuk apa-apa .

“Hello” He said. "Halo" kata Dia.

“Yunho, it's me” Yes, he knew who he was, he knew really well but that was not what he was waiting for. "Yunho, ini aku" Ya, dia tahu siapa dirinya, ia tahu benar-benar baik, tetapi bukan itu yang ia sedang menunggu. He was not waiting for Changmin's voice, but for Jaejoong's. Dia tidak menunggu untuk suara Changmin, tapi untuk Jaejoong's. His grip on the phone was hard now, as if it was the responsible. genggaman-Nya pada telepon sulit sekarang, seolah-olah itu adalah bertanggung jawab. He could not talk, he did not know if it was the anger the deceivement or because he felt like such a fool, but a lump had formed into his throat which kept him from talking, though Changmin did not seem to mind. Dia tidak bisa bicara, ia tidak tahu apakah itu adalah kemarahan deceivement atau karena ia merasa seperti orang bodoh, tetapi telah membentuk suatu benjolan ke lehernya yang membuatnya dari berbicara, meskipun Changmin tidak keberatan.

“Yunho, do you mind if I pass by tonight ?” Yunho nodded, before realising that Changmin could not see him. "Yunho, kau keberatan jika aku melewati malam ini" Yunho mengangguk?, Sebelum Changmin menyadari bahwa tidak bisa melihatnya.

“Yes” "Ya"

“Okay, I'm almost there” And then he hung up. "Oke, aku hampir di sana" Dan kemudian dia menutup telepon.

...What the fuck, was everyone losing his mind tonight ? ... Apa sih, itu semua orang kehilangan pikirannya malam ini? Yunho sighed, what is the point to ask the permission to pass by when you actually don't give a damn about the answer ? Yunho menghela napas, apa titik untuk meminta izin untuk melewati saat Anda benar-benar tidak peduli tentang jawabannya?
He wasn't in the mood to see Changmin, he wasn't in the mood to see anyone, he only wanted...He only wanted to get some time alone, he didn't want to think, he didn't want to make his brain function, he wanted to sleep, the only way to have some kind of peace, and to escape from the memories that kept appearing in his head in a tireless flow. Dia sedang tidak ingin untuk melihat Changmin, ia tidak ingin untuk melihat siapa pun, ia hanya ingin ... Dia hanya ingin mendapatkan beberapa waktu saja, dia tidak mau berpikir, dia tidak ingin untuk membuat fungsi otak, ia ingin tidur, satu-satunya cara memiliki semacam perdamaian, dan untuk melarikan diri dari kenangan yang terus muncul di kepalanya dalam aliran tak kenal lelah.

Yunho abruptly got up of his bed as he heard the ringbell, when he said that he was almost there he didn't lie. Yunho tiba-tiba bangun dari tempat tidur saat ia mendengar ringbell, ketika ia mengatakan bahwa ia sudah hampir sampai dia tidak berbohong. After all maybe it will distract him from his thoughts. Setelah semua mungkin itu akan mengalihkan perhatiannya dari pikirannya.
He had almost reached the door when he realised that he still was naked and since even him knew that it wasn't the best way to greet a guest he quickly went back to his bedroom to put jeans and a shirt on. Dia sudah hampir mencapai pintu ketika dia menyadari bahwa dia masih telanjang dan bahkan karena dia tahu bahwa itu bukan cara terbaik untuk menyambut seorang tamu dengan cepat ia kembali ke kamarnya untuk meletakkan celana jins dan kemeja di. The ringing intensifying, he half ran to the door opening it as soon as he reached it. Dering meningkat, dia setengah berlari untuk membuka pintu secepat dia mencapai itu.

“Why were you so long ?” Changming exclaimed. "Mengapa begitu lama?" Seru Changming.

“...Oh I'm sorry, next time I'll greet you naked, I'm sure you would like that better wouldn't you ?” "... Oh, maaf, lain kali aku akan menyapa Anda telanjang, aku yakin kamu akan seperti itu lebih baik kan?"

“Well if it can help you to open that fucking door quicker, then yes” "Yah jika dapat membantu Anda untuk membuka pintu sialan cepat, kemudian ya"

“Damn, what's with you tonight Changmin ?!” "Sialan, ada apa dengan malam ini Changmin?!"

“What's with me ? "Ada apa dengan saya? What's with you Yunho !” Apa dengan Anda Yunho! "

“What the hell are you talking about ?” "Apa maksudmu?"

“Yunho do you have even the slightest idea of what sort of shitty things you're doing ?” "Yunho apakah Anda memiliki sedikit bahkan ide tentang apa jenis hal-hal buruk yang Anda lakukan?"

“I really don't understand” "Saya benar-benar tidak mengerti"

“Shit, for God's sake don't start to play dumb. "Sialan, demi Allah tidak mulai bermain bodoh. Have the idea of how Jaejoong must have felt ever crossed your fucking mind ? Memiliki gagasan tentang bagaimana Jaejoong pasti merasa pernah terlintas dalam pikiran fucking Anda? How the hell dared you turn him into a tool for your stupid curiosity only ?!” Bagaimana Anda berani mengubahnya menjadi sebuah alat untuk rasa ingin tahu Anda hanya bodoh?! "

What is that ? Apa itu?

“I knew you could be insensitive but to that extent, Jaejoong is your friend damnit!” "Aku tahu kau bisa sensitif tapi sejauh itu, Jaejoong adalah sial teman Anda!"

Why is it like that ? Mengapa seperti itu?

“Did you truly think that it was all right with him ? "Apakah Anda benar-benar berpikir bahwa tidak apa-apa dengan dia? Did you really think that pushing him so much to agree to your own desire was something any different of rape ? Apakah Anda benar-benar berpikir bahwa begitu banyak mendorongnya untuk menyetujui keinginan Anda sendiri adalah sesuatu yang berbeda dari pemerkosaan? But you just didn't care did you ?” Tapi kau tidak peduli kan? "

Why is the effect of Changmin's furious words on me so ridiculous in comparaison of my discussion with Jaejoong ? Mengapa pengaruh kata-kata yang Changmin marah pada saya begitu konyol di comparaison diskusi saya dengan Jaejoong?
Yunho could not understand, he just could not understand why those words spat with so much anger, so much indignation, so loud, so vulgar, were nothing in comparison to the soft, unsure, speech of Jaejoong. Yunho tidak bisa mengerti, dia hanya tidak bisa mengerti mengapa kata-kata bertengkar dengan begitu banyak amarah, kemarahan begitu banyak, begitu keras, begitu vulgar, bukan apa-apa dibandingkan dengan pidato, lembut yakin, dari Jaejoong.
He only realised it when he heard Changmin, the effect it had had on him. Dia hanya menyadari itu ketika dia mendengar Changmin, efeknya sudah kepadanya. And he could not find a reason why. Dan ia tidak bisa menemukan alasan mengapa.

“Aren't you going to say something already ?!” "Apakah kau tidak akan mengatakan sesuatu yang sudah?!"

“I won't sleep with him anymore” "Aku tidak akan tidur dengan dia lagi"

“...What ?” Changmin was dumbfounded by what Yunho said, he knew him, and it was highly improbable that only this short speech could have made him think to the point of forgetting his own want, to the point of deeply realising what he did. "... Apa?" Adalah Changmin tercengang oleh apa Yunho berkata, dia tahu dia, dan itu sangat tidak mungkin bahwa hanya pidato singkat ini bisa membuatnya berpikir untuk titik ingin melupakan sendiri, sampai titik sangat menyadari apa dia. He knew that in those kind of situations, and especially with all that concerned Jaejoong, he was selfish. Dia tahu bahwa pada jenis situasi, dan terutama dengan semua yang Jaejoong bersangkutan, dia egois.

“We talked on the phone, he told me that he wanted to end it” "Kami berbicara di telepon, dia mengatakan bahwa dia ingin mengakhirinya"

“Jaejoong ? "Jaejoong? Did he really say that ?” Changmin couldn't believe it, the last time he saw Jaejoong, he seemed so lost, so desperate, so sad and far away from being courageous or determined enough. Apakah dia benar-benar mengatakan bahwa? "Changmin tak percaya, terakhir kali ia melihat Jaejoong, ia tampak begitu hilang, begitu putus asa, sedih dan jauh dari yang berani atau ditentukan cukup. And furthermore, so in love with Yunho. Dan selanjutnya, begitu mencintai Yunho.

“He said he's going out with Park Yoochun” "Dia bilang dia akan keluar dengan Park Yoochun"

“ He said what ? ” That was definitively weird, Jaejoong, Jaejoong surely repected Park Yoochun as his senior, but to call that love...Did he claim that to get away from Yunho ? "Dia bilang apa?" Itu pasti aneh, Jaejoong, Jaejoong pasti repected Park YooChun sebagai seniornya, tapi untuk panggilan cinta itu ... Apakah dia mengklaim bahwa untuk melepaskan diri dari Yunho? But again Yunho can't be easily fooled, and Jaejoong isn't the kind that can lie easily, but, really, he couldn't have feelings for Yoochun now, could he ? Tapi sekali lagi Yunho tidak dapat dengan mudah tertipu, dan Jaejoong bukan jenis yang dapat berbohong dengan mudah, tapi, sungguh, ia tidak bisa memiliki perasaan untuk YooChun sekarang, bisa dia?

At that instant Changmin's eyes widdened. Pada saat itu mata Changmin's widdened instan. His mind had been completly clouded by the violent anger and indignation he felt for Yunho, and he so only realised the full meanings of his words when his furor calmed down, now, they took all their senses. Pikirannya telah completly mendung oleh kemarahan kekerasan dan marah dia merasa untuk Yunho, dan ia jadi hanya menyadari arti kata-kata penuh ketika kehebohan nya tenang, sekarang, mereka mengambil semua indera mereka. If, Jaejoong really went out with Park Yoochun, even if it was fake, even if he didn't really like him, what he wasn't even sure right now, what will happen to Junsu ? Jika, Jaejoong benar-benar pergi dengan Park YooChun, bahkan jika itu palsu, bahkan jika ia tidak benar-benar menyukainya, apa yang ia bahkan tidak yakin sekarang, apa yang akan terjadi pada Junsu?

Only him was aware of Junsu's feelings, not Yunho not Yoochun, and certainely not Jaejoong. Hanya dia menyadari perasaan Junsu, bukan tidak Yoochun Yunho, dan certainely tidak Jaejoong. But if they really went out together, what will happen to Junsu ? Tetapi jika mereka benar-benar pergi keluar bersama-sama, apa yang akan terjadi pada JunSu?
Changmin's anger had now completely faded, all he could feel was saddeness and worry. kemarahan Changmin sekarang telah sepenuhnya pudar, dia hanya bisa merasakan itu saddeness dan khawatir. He didn't even want to imagine Junsu's face the day after, when he'll see those two together, sharing affection and intimacy, he didn't want to see Junsu's face when he'll see Yoochun being nice to someone like only a lover do, when he'll see his eyes set softly on someone else, no, he knew that it will hurt Junsu too much, and especially if that special someone is his friend Jaejoong. Dia bahkan tidak ingin membayangkan wajah Junsu hari setelah, ketika ia akan melihat kedua bersama-sama, berbagi kasih sayang dan keakraban, ia tidak ingin melihat wajah Junsu ketika dia akan melihat YooChun bersikap baik kepada seseorang seperti hanya kekasih lakukan, ketika dia akan melihat matanya set lembut pada orang lain, tidak ada, ia tahu bahwa itu akan menyakitkan Junsu terlalu banyak, dan terutama jika seseorang khusus Jaejoong temannya.

He also knew that he will be forbidden to talk about his feelings for Yoochun to Jaejoong, or to anyone else. Dia juga tahu bahwa ia akan dilarang untuk berbicara tentang perasaannya untuk YooChun untuk Jaejoong, atau untuk orang lain. And he knew that Junsu will do all that he will be able to hide his sorrow, his saddeness, his jealousy and that he will certainely do a great job at it, that he will successfully fool everyone, expect him. Dan ia tahu bahwa Junsu akan melakukan semua yang dia akan dapat menyembunyikan kesedihannya, saddeness nya, kecemburuan dan bahwa ia certainely akan melakukan pekerjaan yang besar dalam hal itu, bahwa dia berhasil akan menipu semua orang, mengharapkan dia. And Changmin knew that he'll never be able to read the saddeness in his friend's eyes without doing anything, to watch him hurt and feel so helpless, to not be able to help him. Dan Changmin tahu bahwa dia tidak akan pernah bisa membaca saddeness di mata temannya tanpa melakukan apa-apa, untuk melihatnya terluka dan merasa begitu tak berdaya, untuk tidak dapat membantunya.

But now, what could he do ? Tapi sekarang, apa yang bisa dilakukannya? He wanted to help Jaejoong to get out of Yunho's grasp but the latter had find a way to do it alone, but a way that hurt an other of his friend, and he couldn't even say a world. Dia ingin membantu Jaejoong untuk keluar dari genggaman Yunho, tetapi yang terakhir telah menemukan cara untuk melakukannya sendiri, tapi dengan cara yang melukai seorang lain dari temannya, dan ia bahkan tidak bisa mengatakan dunia. It would not have been fair to Junsu nor to Jaejoong. Ini tidak akan adil untuk Junsu atau dengan Jaejoong. He couldn't chose, he won't choose, Jaejoong deserved better than the situation he stucked himself in, who was he to smash the only way he found to end it ? Dia tidak bisa memilih, ia tidak akan memilih, Jaejoong layak lebih baik daripada situasi dia stucked dirinya dalam, yang ia untuk menghancurkan satu-satunya cara dia menemukan mengakhirinya? However he couldn't help but to think of Junsu, how the latter will react ? Namun ia tidak bisa membantu tetapi untuk memikirkan Junsu, bagaimana yang terakhir akan bereaksi? The more he thought the less he wanted to know. Semakin dia berpikir semakin sedikit dia ingin tahu. And Yoochun ? Maka Yoochun? He would have sworn Yoochun was starting to feel something for Junsu, he would have sworn he started to care for him, so why was he going out with Jaejoong now ? Dia akan bersumpah YooChun mulai merasa sesuatu untuk JunSu, dia berani bersumpah dia mulai peduli padanya, jadi mengapa dia pacaran dengan Jaejoong sekarang?
Why the hell was that situation so hectic ? Kenapa adalah situasi yang sangat sibuk? All thanks to that bastard of Jung Yunho. Semua berkat itu haram Jung Yunho.

“I wonder if they can sustain it” "Saya heran jika mereka bisa mempertahankan itu"

“Sustain what ?” Changmin asked bitterly. "Mempertahankan apa?" Tanya Changmin pahit.

“A love relationship” "Sebuah hubungan cinta"

“I'm sure they can....They can have sex too you know” "Aku yakin mereka bisa .... Mereka dapat berhubungan seks juga kau tahu"




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The next morning, Yunho was long to get ready to school, the one who always arrived early was taking a singuliar time to leave his house, and he put that on the simple laziness to get to school. Keesokan paginya, Yunho sudah lama bersiap-siap ke sekolah, yang selalu datang lebih awal membutuhkan waktu singuliar untuk meninggalkan rumahnya, dan dia meletakkan bahwa pada kemalasan yang sederhana untuk sampai ke sekolah. Yeah, laziness. Yeah, kemalasan.
When he had finally checked his bag three times and eaten way more than an average stomach could bear on morning, he did not have any other choice than to leave. Ketika ia akhirnya memeriksa tasnya tiga kali dan lebih dari cara makan perut rata tahan pada pagi hari, ia tidak punya pilihan lain selain pergi.
And still when he was out, walking on the street, he was still slow. Dan masih ketika ia keluar, berjalan di jalan, dia masih lambat.

He did not even realise it himself, how he walked, how his behaviour was different, his mind was too preoccupied to care about such trivial things. Dia bahkan tidak menyadari sendiri, bagaimana dia berjalan, bagaimana perilakunya berbeda, pikirannya terlalu sibuk untuk peduli tentang hal-hal sepele seperti itu. Once again, he was thinking about Jaejoong, about Jaejoong and Yoochun. Sekali lagi, ia berpikir tentang Jaejoong, tentang Jaejoong dan Yoochun. The more he thought about it the more suspicious he became, that just could not be the truth, it was too weird, never ever Jaejoong showed some kind of attraction towards him, and now, especially now that they had been together that way, he was claiming that he had always loved him ? Semakin dia berpikir tentang hal ini semakin mencurigakan dia menjadi, yang tidak bisa adalah kebenaran, terlalu aneh, tidak pernah Jaejoong menunjukkan semacam tarik-menarik ke arahnya, dan sekarang, terutama sekarang bahwa mereka telah bersama-sama seperti itu, dia adalah menyatakan bahwa ia selalu mencintainya? that he was going out with him ? bahwa ia akan keluar dengan dia? To Yunho, it only seemed absurd. Untuk Yunho, hanya tampak absurd.

He knew Jaejoong, after all they were best friends. Dia tahu Jaejoong, setelah semua mereka yang terbaik teman. He would have known if Jaejoong had had feelings for someone wouldn't he ? Dia akan tahu jika Jaejoong punya perasaan bagi seseorang tidak akan dia? He would have seen it, or felt it, but never ever he would have believed Yoochun was the one...Never ever, and he had to admit that it bored him, that he really did not want to be just a friend again, the situation they used to be in was just perfect to him, but now how the hell was he supposed to be a simple friend ? Dia akan melihatnya, atau merasakannya, tapi jangan pernah dia akan percaya Yoochun adalah salah satu ... Jangan pernah, dan ia harus mengakui bahwa dia bosan, bahwa ia benar-benar tidak ingin menjadi sekadar teman lagi, situasi yang mereka digunakan untuk berada di hanya sempurna untuk dia, tapi sekarang bagaimana sih seharusnya ia menjadi teman yang sederhana? Act as if nothing happened ? Bertindak seolah-olah tidak ada yang terjadi?
Yunho knew he was selfish, and he never cared. Yunho tahu ia egois, dan ia tidak pernah peduli. He had always had what he wanted, so being selfish wasn't something to care about. Dia selalu punya apa yang ia inginkan, begitu egois bukan sesuatu yang peduli. Yeah, everything he wanted he had it, by a way or an other. Yeah, semua yang dia ingin dia itu, dengan cara atau lainnya. And he wanted a lot, and a lot for himself, that was selfishness right ? Dan ia ingin banyak, dan banyak untuk dirinya sendiri, itu keegoisan benar?

So, that was also selfishness the fact that he hated the very idea of Yoochun to touch his Jaejoong. Jadi, yang juga mementingkan diri sendiri fakta bahwa ia tidak suka gagasan tentang YooChun menyentuh Jaejoong nya. It was selfishness when he felt his heart race and his legs accelere at the only idea of someone else having him like he used to have him. Itu adalah egoisme ketika dia merasa ras hatinya dan kakinya accelere pada gagasan orang lain hanya karena dia seperti ia digunakan untuk memilikinya. It was selfishness the fact that he knew he will hate everyone that dared to act with him like he did. Itu egois fakta bahwa ia tahu ia akan membenci setiap orang yang berani untuk bertindak dengan dia seperti yang dia lakukan.
Yeah, maybe it was all like Changmin said, he was just pissed off because his favourite toy had been taken away by someone else, had been practically stolen out of his hands, maybe Jaejoong was even thinking about Yoochun when he was in his arms. Yeah, mungkin itu semua seperti Changmin mengatakan, ia hanya kesal karena mainan favoritnya telah dibawa pergi oleh orang lain, telah praktis dicuri dari tangannya, mungkin Jaejoong bahkan berpikir YooChun ketika ia dalam pelukannya. After all he himself thought of Jaejoong when he was with his girlfriend, maybe, Jejoong too hadn't been attracted to him, but only wanted to have a substitute, to be in a way or an other with the one he loved ? Setelah semua ia sendiri memikirkan Jaejoong ketika ia dengan pacarnya, mungkin, Jejoong juga tidak tertarik padanya, tetapi hanya ingin memiliki pengganti, untuk berada di jalan atau lainnya dengan yang ia cintai? Maybe it was like that ? Mungkin itu seperti itu?

But Yunho knew that deep inside of him he couldn't accept it, it made him too mad the only thought that Jaejoong all this way could have thought of someone else, it made him too mad, and...It somehow...Decieved him. Tapi Yunho tahu bahwa di dalam yang mendalam dia tidak bisa menerimanya, itu membuatnya terlalu marah satu-satunya cara berpikir bahwa semua Jaejoong ini bisa memikirkan orang lain, itu membuatnya terlalu marah, dan ... entah bagaimana ... menipunya.

Just a little more steps, and he will reach the school gates. Hanya langkah-langkah yang lebih sedikit, dan dia akan mencapai gerbang sekolah.

Now that he was close, his steps were getting quicker, he realised it then. Sekarang bahwa ia dekat, langkahnya adalah mendapatkan lebih cepat, dia menyadari itu kemudian.
He needed to see it, he needed to see it with his own eyes, not through a call, nor through a voice intonation, no, he needed to see it, to feel it, to have some kind of proof that will force his mind to stop to wander around crazily torn between the past and the future. Dia harus melihatnya, ia harus melihat dengan mata sendiri, bukan melalui panggilan, atau melalui intonasi suara, tidak, ia harus melihatnya, merasakannya, untuk memiliki beberapa jenis bukti yang akan memaksa pikirannya berhenti untuk berjalan di sekitar keruan terbelah antara masa lalu dan masa depan.

Just a little more steps and he'll reach the classroom. Hanya sedikit langkah lagi dan dia akan mencapai kelas.

He didn't know what he exactly wanted, A hug ? Dia tidak tahu persis apa yang dia inginkan, memeluk A? A kiss ? Ciuman? A heavy making out on the floor ? Sebuah membuat berat di lantai? He didn't know, just something concrete. Dia tidak tahu, hanya beton sesuatu. It was funny how he never doubted Jaejoong to be lying, but in the same way, thinking with all his strength that it was a lie. Lucu cara dia tidak pernah meragukan Jaejoong untuk berbohong, tapi dengan cara yang sama, berpikir dengan sekuat tenaga bahwa itu bohong.

As he entered, his body froze. Ketika ia masuk, tubuhnya membeku. Most of the students were there, Changmin was, Junsu was, and Jaejoong was. Sebagian besar siswa ada di sana, Changmin itu, Junsu itu, dan Jaejoong. But the latter was not alone, no, Park Yoochun was by his side, sitting on his desk, chatting with him, and sharing wide and warm smiles. Tapi yang terakhir itu tidak sendirian, tidak, Park Yoochun berada di sampingnya, duduk di mejanya, mengobrol dengan dia, dan berbagi senyum lebar dan hangat. Quickly he pulled himself together greeted softly people around him, before letting his body fall on his chair. Dengan cepat ia menarik dirinya bersama-sama disambut lembut orang di sekelilingnya, sebelum membiarkan tubuhnya jatuh di kursinya. And maybe, today was the first day when he wasn't so keen on having his desk so close to Jaejoong's one. Dan mungkin, hari ini adalah hari pertama ketika ia tidak begitu tertarik untuk memiliki mejanya begitu dekat dengan Jaejoong satu.

He observed as Yoochun's put his hand on Jaejoong's shoulder softly, making the latter look up. Ia mengamati sebagai YooChun's meletakkan tangannya di bahu Jaejoong lembut, membuat tampilan kedua atas.

“Good morning” Yunho said cooly. "Selamat pagi" kata Yunho cooly.

“G-Good morning Yunho” "G-Selamat pagi Yunho"

“Jaejoong” It was Yoochun's turn to speak “Do you want us to eat together today ? "Jaejoong" Itu adalah Yoochun giliran untuk bicara "Apakah Anda ingin kami makan bersama hari ini? I'll pay for your lunch of course” He smiled, standing up. Aku akan membayar Anda untuk makan siang tentu saja "Dia tersenyum, berdiri.

“Yes, Yes that would be nice, but don't you want to eat with me and my friends instead, so you'll get to know them” Jaejoong smiled back, though it was a little smile just on the corner of his lips. "Ya, Ya itu bagus, tapi jangan kau mau makan dengan saya dan teman-teman saya sebagai gantinya, sehingga Anda akan mengenal mereka" JaeJoong tersenyum kembali, meskipun hanya sedikit senyum di sudut bibirnya .

“Well I guess a meal with just the two of us will have to wait then” He slightly brushed their fingers together before getting out of the room. "Well I guess makan dengan hanya kami berdua harus menunggu kemudian" Dia sedikit menyentuh jari-jari mereka bersama-sama sebelum keluar dari ruangan.

They've just made it clear Yunho thought. Mereka baru saja membuat Yunho pikir jelas.





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“You don't have to go if you don't want” That was what Changmin said, and to that, Junsu softly smiled. "Anda tidak perlu pergi jika Anda tidak ingin" Itulah kata Changmin, dan untuk itu, JunSu tersenyum lembut.

“Why wouldn't I want ? "Kenapa tidak saya inginkan? I'm hungry too you know” Changmin sighed, he knew it was going to be that way. Aku lapar juga kau tahu "Changmin menghela napas, ia tahu itu akan seperti itu.

“Junsu, please, I know you can fool everyone with that act, but not me. "Junsu, silahkan, aku tahu kau bisa membohongi semua orang dengan tindakan itu, tapi bukan aku. Please spare that to me, spare me your fake happy smiling face when I know what's behind” Tolong itu padaku, biarkanlah saya menghadapi palsu Anda tersenyum bahagia ketika saya tahu apa dibalik "

“I don't see what you're talking about Changmin, I'm prefectly fine, I'm always fine” "Saya tidak melihat apa yang sedang Anda bicarakan Changmin, aku prefectly baik-baik saja, aku selalu baik-baik saja"

“...Junsu, stop it please, just stop it, I don't want to see you like that” "... Junsu, hentikan tolong, hentikan itu, saya tidak ingin melihat Anda seperti itu"

“See me like what ? "Lihat seperti apa? Happy ? Happy? You're going insane Changmin, or are you finally admitting that you're a total saddist ?” Junsu was washing his hands, half singing, looking at himself in the mirror. Kau akan Changmin gila, atau Anda akhirnya mengakui bahwa Anda adalah seorang saddist total "Junsu sedang mencuci tangannya, setengah bernyanyi, melihat dirinya di cermin?.

“Ne, don't you think I've become better looking” He turned around “Hey ! "Ne, jangan kau mengira aku menjadi lebih baik mencari" Dia berbalik "Hei! Don't you think ? Don't you think? I think I'm better looking now ain't I changmin ah ?” Aku pikir aku lebih tampan sekarang bukan aku ah Changmin? "

“Please Junsu stop that, stop that already, drop your fucking mask” "Silakan Junsu berhenti itu, menghentikan yang sudah, drop masker sialan Anda"

“...Are you on drugs or something ? "... Apakah Anda tentang obat-obatan atau sesuatu? Seriously what did you eat on morning ? Serius apa yang Anda makan pagi? Have you at least eaten ? Apakah Anda setidaknya dimakan? Is it why you're going all crazy like that and keep babbling for nothing ? Apakah itu sebabnya kau akan semua gila seperti itu dan terus mengoceh sia-sia? Anyway, let's go, I'm hungry, let's go before they leave without us” Anyway, mari kita pergi, aku lapar, kita pergi sebelum mereka pergi tanpa kita "

“Junsu, you really don't have to go” "Junsu, Anda benar-benar tidak harus pergi"

“It's just a common meal, come on wake up already, isn't it your favourite part of the day ?” That, will certainely won't be today "Ini hanya makan bersama, ayo bangun sudah, bukan bagian favorit Anda hari itu?", Certainely akan tidak akan hari ini

Changmin watched Junsu leaving the restroom singing softly, he definitively hated to see his friend like that. Changmin melihat Junsu meninggalkan kamar mandi bernyanyi lembut, ia definitif benci melihat temannya seperti itu.





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Yunho knew that eating with them was not going to be a good idea, he knew it, he should have left. Yunho tahu bahwa makan dengan mereka tidak akan menjadi ide yang baik, ia tahu, ia seharusnya pergi. He should have done like Junsu, left in the middle of the lunch, saying that he was full, he should have done like Changmin, leaving in pretext to stay with Junsu. Yang harus dia lakukan seperti Junsu, meninggalkan di tengah-tengah makan siang itu, dengan mengatakan bahwa ia penuh, dia harus dilakukan seperti Changmin, berangkat dalih untuk tinggal bersama Junsu. He should have done something, anything , but he should have left. Dia seharusnya melakukan sesuatu, apa saja, tapi ia harus telah meninggalkan. Yeah, he should have left this damn cafeteria, and especially that couple in front of him. Yeah, dia seharusnya meninggalkan kantin sialan ini, dan terutama bahwa pasangan di depannya.

But now, it was too late he was stuck there, and, he in addition always had the weird impression that Yoochun kept to glance at him furtively from the moment they sat. Tapi sekarang, terlambat dia terjebak di sana, dan, dia selain selalu memiliki kesan aneh yang YooChun terus melirik ke arah dia sembunyi-sembunyi dari saat mereka Sab
And from this moment on, all that Yunho wished for was to leave. Dan dari saat ini, semua yang Yunho berharap untuk adalah untuk pergi. The scene that was still being played before him, angered him and disgusted him. Adegan yang masih dimainkan di hadapannya, membuatnya marah dan jijik. If he wasn't staring, he heard them talked and inexorably stared again. Jika ia tidak menatap, ia mendengar mereka bicara dan menatap tak terelakkan lagi.

He didn't know couples displayed such intimacy in public. Dia tidak tahu pasangan ditampilkan keintiman seperti di depan umum. He didn't know they had the urgent need to feed each other, and he wondered how hard it must have been to Yoochun having an arm around Jaejoong's waist, while feeding Jaejoong from the other one. Dia tidak tahu bahwa mereka memiliki kebutuhan mendesak untuk pakan satu sama lain, dan ia bertanya-tanya bagaimana keras pasti untuk YooChun memiliki lengan Jaejoong pinggang, sementara makan Jaejoong dari yang lain. But Yunho didn't find them “sweet” as Junsu said, no he found it displeasing. Tapi Yunho tidak menemukan mereka "manis" sebagai Junsu berkata, tidak ia menemukannya menjengkelkan.

Moreover, Jaejoong never looked his way. Selain itu, Jaejoong tidak pernah melihat jalannya. Since he greeted him this morning, he had never again looked at him, when he looked at Jaejoong. Karena ia menyapanya pagi ini, ia tidak pernah lagi menatapnya, ketika dia menatap Jaejoong. Maybe it was because each time they could have some time alone, Yoochun popped up out of god knows where to be with him. Mungkin karena mereka bisa setiap kali memiliki beberapa waktu saja, Yoochun muncul keluar dari dewa tahu di mana bersamanya. Damn he was his boyfriend not his personal bodyguard, someone should explain to the poor guy that Jaejoong was living really well in that oh so dangerous world before they met, and that he didn't need him to be always with him, watching his every move. Sialan dia pacarnya tidak pengawal pribadinya, seseorang harus menjelaskan kepada orang miskin yang tinggal Jaejoong dengan sangat baik di dunia oh begitu berbahaya sebelum mereka bertemu, dan bahwa ia tidak membutuhkan dia untuk selalu bersamanya, mengawasi nya setiap bergerak.

Or even wiping his mouth like he did. Atau juga menyeka mulutnya seperti dia. Damn was he the only one to think that he was able to eat and wash alone ? Wash ...At that Yunho couldn't help but to think of their first night together, in the shower. Sial ia satu-satunya untuk berpikir bahwa ia bisa makan dan mencuci sendiri ...? Cuci Pada Yunho tidak bisa membantu tetapi untuk memikirkan malam pertama mereka bersama, di kamar mandi. And at that very instant, watching Jaejoong in Yoochun's arms he wanted him, he wanted him violently. Dan pada saat itu, sangat instan Jaejoong menonton dalam pelukan YooChun dia ingin dia, dia ingin hebat. If it wasn't for the people around, he would have just jumped on him and did it with him on the table. Jika bukan karena orang-orang sekitar, dia akan melompat kepadanya dan melakukannya dengan dia di atas meja.

But, there was people around, and there was Yoochun. Tapi, ada orang-orang sekitar, dan ada YooChun. Yes there was that big problem which kept him from acting the way he wanted with Jaejoong that kept him to have him, to touch him, to kiss him, or to even look at him freely. Ya ada masalah besar yang membuatnya bertindak seperti yang diinginkannya dengan Jaejoong yang membuatnya untuk memiliki dia, menyentuhnya, untuk menciumnya, atau bahkan melihatnya secara bebas. He couldn't take it any longer, he couldn't look at him touching him like he was his, he couldn't take it. Dia tidak tahan lagi, dia tidak bisa melihatnya menyentuhnya seperti dia, ia tidak bisa menerimanya.

And it was weird yeah it was so weird. Dan ya aneh itu sangat aneh. It was the first time he felt Jaejoong slip out of his hands, and it was definitively a feeling he did not like. Ini adalah pertama kalinya dia merasa Jaejoong menyelinap keluar dari tangannya, dan itu definitif perasaan dia tidak suka. But what difference did it make after all ? Tapi apa bedanya setelah semua? He could be angry frustrated, even jealous, Jaejoong was not his anymore, and he could never be with him like he used to. Dia bisa marah frustrasi, bahkan cemburu, Jaejoong bukan miliknya lagi, dan ia tidak pernah bisa bersamanya seperti dulu.
Never, what they had was over, and he needed to register it. Pernah, apa yang mereka sudah berakhir, dan ia harus mendaftarkannya. He had to be just a friend again, but, it just did not feel right, being a simple friend again, he knew that he had to but in him, he knew he would never accept it completely. Dia harus hanya teman lagi, tetapi, ia hanya tidak merasa benar, menjadi teman yang sederhana lagi, ia tahu bahwa ia harus tapi dalam dirinya, ia tahu ia tidak akan menerimanya sepenuhnya.





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“Junsu!” Changmin called out of breath, running helplessly behind his friend who didn't will to stop. "Junsu" seru! Changmin terengah-engah, berjalan tak berdaya di belakang temannya yang tidak akan berhenti. “Junsu wait up” Luckily Changmin being much more taller succeeded to catch him back. "Junsu menunggu sampai" Untungnya Changmin yang jauh lebih tinggi berhasil menangkapnya kembali.

And as he did, Junsu did not try to struggle, he did not yell nor did he smile, he only stopped to run and stared at Changmin. Dan seperti dia, Junsu tidak mencoba untuk berjuang, ia tidak berteriak atau dia tersenyum, dia hanya berhenti untuk berjalan dan menatap Changmin. Corridors were almost empty since most of the students were still having lunch. Koridor hampir kosong karena sebagian besar mahasiswa masih makan siang. But Changmin did not want to take any risk. Tapi Changmin tidak ingin mengambil risiko apapun. Softly he caught Junsu's hand, and slowly he brought him into their empty classroom. Dengan lembut ia menangkap tangan Junsu, dan perlahan-lahan ia membawa dia ke ruang kelas mereka yang kosong.

With no further ado, Junsu broke down on his chest, Changmin knew that it was going to happen, he knew it, but it didn't hurt him less, he wanted to say that everything will be all right, that there was no reason to cry, but he wasn't sure himself of his words, and he rather watched him cry as painful as it was than to give him fake hopes. Tanpa basa-basi, Junsu rusak di dadanya, Changmin tahu bahwa itu akan terjadi, ia tahu itu, tapi tidak menyakitinya kurang, dia ingin mengatakan bahwa semuanya akan baik-baik saja, bahwa ada alasan menangis, tapi ia tidak yakin diri dari kata-katanya, dan ia lebih melihatnya menangis itu menyakitkan daripada memberinya harapan palsu. He knew it would only be worst, he knew Junsu would hang on everything someone would offer him right now, and he did not want him to hang on lies. Dia tahu itu hanya akan terburuk, ia tahu Junsu akan menggantung pada semua orang akan menawarkan dia sekarang, dan ia tidak ingin dia menggantung di atas dusta.

“Don't cry please, he'll realise it, what he left behind, he'll realise it. "Jangan nangis dong, dia akan menyadarinya, apa yang ditinggalkannya, dia akan menyadarinya. I promise you, so don't cry please” Saya berjanji kepada Anda, jadi jangan nangis dong "

Changmin felt stuck. Changmin merasa terjebak. Two of his important and closest friends were both in unbearable situations, and wickedly linked. Dua dari teman-teman dekatnya penting dan sama-sama dalam situasi yang tak tertahankan, dan jahat terkait. What could he do to help both of them without hurting one of them ? Apa yang bisa ia lakukan untuk membantu mereka berdua tanpa menyakiti salah satu dari mereka?

Changmin rubbed his hand soothingly on Junsu's back, as the latter hid his head into his neck to try to hide his tears and sobs along. Changmin mengusap tangannya menenangkan di punggung Junsu, seperti yang terakhir menyembunyikan kepalanya ke leher untuk mencoba menyembunyikan air matanya dan terisak-isak bersama. Changmin knew it, he knew that Junsu hated to cry in front of others, his hands so left his back and went onto his head, caressing it until Junsu's sobbed vanished, until his tears stopped to wet his neck, until his body found his calmness back. Changmin tahu itu, ia tahu bahwa Junsu benci menangis di depan orang lain, tangannya jadi bek kiri dan pergi ke kepalanya, membelai sampai Junsu's isak lenyap, sampai air matanya berhenti untuk membasahi lehernya, sampai tubuhnya ditemukan ketenangannya mundur.

But even then, Junsu did not let go of Changmin, he didn't want to. Tetapi bahkan kemudian, Junsu tidak melepaskan Changmin, dia tidak ingin. Right now he needed support, and Changmin understood it really well, he closed his arms around his waist and hugged him calmly. Sekarang dia membutuhkan dukungan, dan Changmin memahaminya dengan sangat baik, dia menutup tangannya di pinggangnya dan memeluknya dengan tenang. Right now, that was all he could do, be there for him. Sekarang, itu semua bisa ia lakukan, akan ada untuknya. Right now that was all he could do to cheer him up, it wasn't much, but Junsu appreciated it, and was grateful. Saat ini hanya itu yang ia bisa lakukan untuk menghiburnya, itu tidak banyak, tapi Junsu menghargainya, dan bersyukur. It wasn't much, but, his chest was warmer, and his sorrow had lost some of its amertume, and that, Changmin appreciated it. Itu tidak banyak, tapi, dadanya lebih hangat, dan kesedihan telah kehilangan sebagian amertume, dan bahwa, Changmin menghargainya.

Then only, Changmin let go of Junsu's waist though the latter still was in his arms, and wipped what remained of wetness on Junsu's cheeks. Kemudian hanya, Changmin melepaskan pinggang Junsu's meskipun kedua masih dalam pelukannya, dan wipped apa yang tersisa dari basah di pipi Junsu's.

“Don't cry anymore, you look ugly when you cry” That simple sentence made a light and gentle smile blossom on Junsu's tired face, he nodded, still smiling. "Jangan menangis lagi, Anda terlihat jelek ketika Anda menangis" Itu kalimat sederhana membuat mekar tersenyum ringan dan lembut di wajah Junsu lelah, dia mengangguk, masih tersenyum.

“Changmin, thank you” And Junsu felt bad, he felt bad to have so little to show his friend how grateful he was, to have nothing but those two words. "Changmin, terima kasih" Dan Junsu merasa buruk, ia merasa buruk untuk punya sedikit untuk menunjukkan temannya bagaimana ia bersyukur, memiliki apa-apa kecuali dua kata itu.

They eventually broke their hold when people entered in the classroom. Mereka akhirnya patah terus mereka ketika orang masuk dalam kelas.

“Yoochun, did you really have to accompaign me ?” Jaejoong exclaimed. "Yoochun, apakah Anda benar-benar harus accompaign saya?" Seru Jaejoong.

“Yeah of course !” But his voice was strangely cut off as he saw the scene before him “What are you doing ?” He asked to the half hugging couple in front of him. "Ya tentu saja!" Tapi suaranya aneh putus saat ia melihat adegan sebelum dia "Apa yang kamu lakukan" Dia diminta untuk pasangan setengah memeluk di depannya?.

“Nothing at all” Changmin said back. Well, isn't that interesting ? . "Tidak ada sama sekali" kata Changmin kembali. Nah, bukankah itu menarik?.

“Is that so ?” Yoochun continued. "Apakah itu begitu?" Lanjut Yoochun.

“They were only hugging” Yunho declared visibly bored “No need to make such a fuss” He then passed by Jaejoong, without a word nor a glance, and he would have sworn he saw Jaejoong stiffen. "Mereka hanya memeluk" Yunho menyatakan tampak bosan "Tidak perlu membuat suatu keributan" Dia kemudian melewati Jaejoong, tanpa kata atau sekilas, dan ia akan bersumpah ia melihat Jaejoong kaku.

“Well I'm going” With a last look at Changmin, Yoochun left the room. "Yah aku akan" Dengan terakhir melihat Changmin, Yoochun meninggalkan ruangan.

Calmly, Yunho went back to Jaejoong. Dengan tenang, Yunho kembali ke Jaejoong. “Tell me, Jaejoong sshi mind if we have a talk ?” "Katakan padaku, Jaejoong pikiran sshi jika kita bicara?"