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“I wonder why...” "Aku ingin tahu mengapa ..."

“Why what ?” "Mengapa apa?"

“When I look at you, I get turned on” ...What ? "Ketika aku melihatmu, aku berpaling pada" ... Apa?

“You dropped your piece of meat !” He announces something like that and talks of a fucking piece of meat right after ? How can someone be this...No forget it, I can't think of anyone like Jung Yunho anyway. "Kau menjatuhkan sepotong daging Anda benar!" Dia mengumumkan hal seperti itu dan berbicara tentang fucking sepotong daging setelah? Bagaimana bisa seseorang seperti ini ... Tidak lupa, aku tidak bisa memikirkan orang seperti Jung Yunho pula.

“What did you say ?” I asked, maybe I really heard it wrong, my mind had surely imagined things again, it had to be it, it really had to be it. "Apa yang Anda katakan salah?" Aku bertanya, mungkin aku benar-benar mendengarnya, pikiranku pasti membayangkan hal-hal lagi, harus itu, itu benar-benar harus itu.

“Isn't that weird ? "Bukankah itu aneh? What do you think it is ?” He added casually. Apa yang Anda pikir ini adalah "Dia menambahkan santai?.

Hold on a minute, is he, is he testing me ? Tunggu sebentar, dia, dia menguji saya? Did he find out about...My real feelings, that I loved him ? Apakah dia mencari tahu tentang ... perasaan nyata saya, bahwa aku mencintainya? I've always wondered how he will react if he actually knew...Will he be disgusted ? Aku selalu bertanya-tanya bagaimana dia akan bereaksi jika ia benar-benar tahu ... Apakah dia akan jijik? Will he stop to hang out with me ? Apakah dia akan berhenti untuk bergaul dengan saya? Those thoughts were haunting my mind and maybe it was because of this, that I couldn't actually confess, lose his friendship, the only way I have to be close to him would be unbearable. Pikiran-pikiran yang menghantui pikiran saya dan mungkin karena ini, bahwa aku tidak bisa benar-benar mengaku, kehilangan persahabatannya, satu-satunya cara saya harus dekat dengannya tak tertahankan.

Yes, it's better to just shut up, to try to lock my heart hiding every littles crumbs of feeling I have for him, and like that stay by his side. Ya, lebih baik diam saja, mencoba untuk mengunci hatiku bersembunyi setiap remah littles perasaan saya untuk dia, dan seperti yang tinggal di sisinya.
Though I think that I actually did a great job into concealing my feelings...How could he possibly have found out ? Meskipun aku berpikir bahwa aku benar-benar melakukan pekerjaan besar dalam menyembunyikan perasaan saya ... Bagaimana mungkin ia telah menemukan? Or is he pushing me to confess ? Atau dia mendorong saya untuk mengaku? Can't I even care for him in silence ? Dapatkah saya bahkan tidak peduli padanya dalam diam?

“Why are you asking me such a thing ? "Mengapa kau menanyakan hal seperti itu? How can I even know ? Bagaimana saya bisa tahu? Don't you think that it's weird anyway ?” Jangan Anda berpikir bahwa ini aneh sih? "

“Yes...You could be right, I'm sorry if I freaked you out, I just, I, let it go I've never said anything” Wait a minute, was he, was he actually serious ? "Ya ... Anda mungkin benar, aku minta maaf kalau aku ketakutan kamu keluar, aku hanya, aku, biarkan saja aku tidak pernah mengatakan apa-apa" Tunggu sebentar, dia, dia benar-benar serius?

“This thing is so good !” He shouted. "Hal ini sangat baik!" Dia berteriak. My god will he keep the food out of his mind for one minute ? dewa saya akan ia menyimpan makanan itu dari pikirannya selama satu menit? This guy definitively spent too much time with Changmin ! Orang ini secara definitif terlalu banyak menghabiskan waktu dengan Changmin!

He...Said that he was turned on by me, that only thought makes me too nervous to eat. Dia ... Katanya bahwa ia terangsang oleh saya, yang hanya berpikir membuat saya terlalu gugup untuk makan. Does that mean that, he cares for me ? Apakah itu berarti bahwa, dia peduli padaku? That he...Perhaps...Shares the same feelings ? Bahwa dia ... Mungkin ... Saham perasaan yang sama? Can it be possible ? Bisakah itu mungkin?

“You know, go first to class I'll meet you there” I said. "Kau tahu, pergi pertama ke kelas aku akan menemuimu di sana" kataku. I definitively needed some time alone. Aku definitif membutuhkan waktu sendirian.

“What No Way ! "Apa No Way! I'm waiting for you !” Okay, Jung Yunho you know I love when you're like that but now isn't actually the best time possible. Aku sedang menunggu Anda "Oke, Jung Yunho kau tahu aku cinta ketika Anda seperti itu, tapi sekarang tidak benar-benar saat yang terbaik!.

“Ehh ! "Ehh! We've been looking for you everywhere ! Kami sudah mencari ke mana-mana! How come you're still there ?!” I looked up to see Changmin and Junsu coming our way. Kenapa kau masih ada di sana! "? Aku mendongak untuk melihat Changmin dan Junsu datang cara kami.

“Jaejoong is just sooo slow !” "Jaejoong hanya sooo lambat!"

“What ?! "Apa?! It's all because of...” I stopped my words, he can not know that I became uneasy because of him. Ini semua karena ... "Aku berhenti kata-kata saya, dia tidak dapat mengetahui bahwa saya menjadi gelisah karena dia.

“SO ! "SO! What the teachers told you Junsu ?!” I asked avoiding Yunho's eyes. Apa yang guru bilang Junsu! "? Aku bertanya menghindari mata Yunho's.

“He said that if I keep up like that I'll have to repeat that class, damn man” "Dia berkata bahwa jika aku terus seperti itu aku harus mengulang kelas, sialan manusia"

“So...Changmin didn't help you a lot ? "Jadi ... Changmin tidak banyak membantu Anda? Good job you student council's president !” Yunho smirked. Good job presiden dewan siswa Anda! "Yunho menyeringai.

“What ? "Apa? it's not my fault if Junsu is that stupid !” I chuckled as Changmin let escape a loud gasp as Junsu slapped him hard. bukan salahku jika JunSu adalah bahwa bodoh "aku tertawa kecil saat Changmin membiarkan lolos terengah keras sebagai Junsu menamparnya keras!.

“I meant, doesn't seem to know how to use his oh so great brain, and you know, answering to the teacher that you actually had luck all this while about your previous exams, wasn't exactly the smartest thing to say” He smiled. "Maksudku, tampaknya tidak tahu bagaimana menggunakan otaknya oh begitu besar, dan Anda tahu, menjawab kepada guru bahwa Anda benar-benar beruntung selama ini tentang ujian sebelumnya Anda, itu bukan hal terbaik untuk mengatakan" Dia tersenyum.

“Yes at least I don't drool on a guy that I don't even know” He said back “How can you be attracted to that Keita if you don't even know him ?” I smiled at his words, Changmin's obssession for Keita was something that everyone knew by now, of course, except Keita. "Ya setidaknya aku tidak meneteskan air liur pada orang yang aku bahkan tidak tahu" Ia mengatakan kembali "Bagaimana kamu bisa tertarik ke Keita jika Anda bahkan tidak kenal dia" aku tersenyum pada kata-katanya, obssession Changmin's? untuk Keita adalah sesuatu yang semua orang tahu sekarang, tentu saja, kecuali Keita.

“That is none of your business, and following your logic at least I am not obsessed by someone that doesn't even know I exist” "Itu bukan urusan Anda, dan mengikuti logika Anda setidaknya saya tidak terobsesi oleh seseorang yang bahkan tidak tahu aku ada"

“How can you be such a bastard ? "Bagaimana kau bisa seperti bajingan? And for your information he only knows you because you're the student council president” Dan untuk informasi Anda ia hanya tahu karena kau presiden dewan siswa "

“You forgot to mention my popularity, my brain, my look my charm my..” "Anda lupa menyebutkan popularitas saya, otak saya, saya melihat pesona saya .. saya"

“Wait a minute ! "Tunggu sebentar! Junsu likes someone ?” I asked surprised. Junsu menyukai seseorang? "Tanyaku terkejut.

“No I don't” he answered "Tidak, aku tidak" dia jawab

“Yes he does” Changmin smirked. "Ya dia" Changmin menyeringai.

“Who is that girl !!” I asked amused at Junsu's red chick. "Siapa gadis itu!" Aku bertanya geli Junsu's chick merah.

“Girl..” Changmin smirked. "Girl .." menyeringai Changmin.

“Sorry to interrupt you guys, but we're going to be late for sport class” I jerked at Yunho's voice, I had almost forgot about hat happened, when I turned around I saw him staring at me I felt my face going red. "Maaf mengganggu kalian, tapi kami akan terlambat untuk kelas olahraga" Aku tersentak di suara Yunho, aku hampir lupa tentang topi terjadi, ketika aku berbalik aku melihat dia menatap aku merasa wajahku merah padam.

“Yunho is right” I said “Let's go”. "Yunho benar" kataku, "Ayo kita pergi".




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As we were walking on the corridor, we heard a girl shooting Yunho's name, actually it wasn't just a girl, it was Hee Jin, that was despite being new in the highschool already pretty popular. Ketika kami berjalan di koridor, kami mendengar nama seorang gadis penembakan Yunho's, sebenarnya bukan hanya seorang gadis, itu Hee Jin, yang meskipun baru di SMA sudah cukup populer.

“I'll be back in a minute, wait for me” He said walking towards her. "Aku akan kembali sebentar lagi, tunggu aku" Katanya berjalan ke arahnya.

I couldn't help but to stare at them, is she going to ask him out ? Aku tidak bisa membantu tetapi untuk menatap ke arah mereka, dia akan mengajaknya keluar? It won't be surprising though, practically all the normally constitued straight girls are running after Yunho. Ini tidak akan mengejutkan meskipun, hampir semua gadis lurus biasanya constitued berjalan setelah Yunho. I perfectly knew it, I knew that he had had too much girls to be counted, that he dumped them, he even played with them, but that it didn't affect his popularity. Aku sangat tahu itu, aku tahu bahwa ia sudah terlalu banyak gadis-gadis untuk dihitung, bahwa dia membuang mereka, ia bahkan bermain bersama mereka, tetapi itu tidak mempengaruhi popularitasnya.

I know that, when it's finished with one, an other will arrive, yes I do know it. Aku tahu itu, kalau sudah selesai dengan satu, yang lain akan tiba, ya aku tahu itu. But I don't, no, I can't get used to it. Tapi aku tidak, tidak, saya tidak bisa digunakan untuk itu. I can not get used to it nor to the pain that comes along. Aku tidak bisa digunakan untuk itu atau untuk rasa sakit yang datang. An awfully known pain, each time and each time the same feeling, just there, on the heart that comes with the disgust of myself for loving him, for staying quiet, for being jealous though I have no rights to be. Sebuah sakit sekali diketahui, setiap kali dan setiap kali perasaan yang sama, hanya di sana, di jantung yang dilengkapi dengan jijik pada diriku sendiri karena mencintai dia, untuk tetap tenang, untuk menjadi cemburu meskipun aku tidak memiliki hak untuk menjadi. And thinking like that just makes me more hurt and lost in this vicious circle. Dan berpikir seperti itu hanya membuat saya lebih sakit dan kehilangan dalam lingkaran setan.

“Junsu ? "Junsu? Can you buy me a drink ?” Changmin asked. Dapatkah Anda membeli saya minum? "Tanya Changmin.

“Who do you take me for ? "Siapa yang Anda membawa saya untuk? Your personal servant ? Anda pribadi hamba? Go yourself !” Pergi sendiri! "

“Come on Junsu ! "Ayo JunSu! I'll give you some money to buy you a drink in the meantime !” Changmin whined. Saya akan memberikan beberapa uang untuk membeli Anda minum sementara itu "Changmin rengek!.

“I'm on my way” He said happily. "Aku sedang dalam perjalanan saya" Katanya bahagia.

“Too easy !” Changmin sighed, “ So...now that we're not able anymore to shock innocent ears anymore, I was wondering...if he told you that he gets turned on..by you ?” "Terlalu mudah" desah! Changmin, "Jadi ... sekarang bahwa kami tidak dapat lagi untuk shock telinga tidak bersalah lagi, aku bertanya-tanya ... apakah dia mengatakan kepada Anda bahwa dia akan berpaling pada .. oleh Anda?"

My eyes widened. Mataku terbelalak. I couldn't let escape a single word, but thoughts were fighting harshly in my mind first how the hell did he know ? Saya tidak bisa membiarkan lolos satu kata, tapi pikiran berjuang keras dalam pikiran saya pertama bagaimana sih dia tahu?

“That's why you were acting so nervously around him” He stopped a moment before adding “And that's why you were starring at them like that” I startled at his words, he couldn't have possibly...Found out about my feelings could he ? "Karena itulah Anda bertindak begitu gugup di sekelilingnya" Dia berhenti sejenak sebelum menambahkan "Dan itulah mengapa Anda bintangi mereka seperti itu" Aku terkejut mendengar kata-kata, ia tidak bisa mungkin ... Ditemukan tahu tentang perasaan saya bisa dia? That was true that it was Changmin that we were talking about but... Itu benar bahwa Changmin yang kami bicarakan tapi ...

“How, how do you know ?” I asked, I knew that already my face was blushing, and my throat was getting dry. "Bagaimana, bagaimana kau tahu" Aku bertanya?, Aku tahu wajahku sudah tersipu-sipu, dan tenggorokan saya mulai kering.

“He told me on the way to school, that he was aroused by just looking at you, just looking at your face is enough” Okay, now I was certain that my head was as red as a tomatto. "Dia mengatakan kepada saya dalam perjalanan ke sekolah, bahwa ia terangsang hanya dengan melihat Anda, hanya melihat wajah Anda cukup" Oke, sekarang saya yakin bahwa kepala saya merah seperti sebuah tomatto.

“Why, why would he say something like that ?” I asked more to myself than to Changmin. "Mengapa, mengapa ia mengatakan sesuatu seperti itu" aku bertanya lebih pada diri sendiri daripada Changmin?.

“I don't know...You've got a beautiful face, more beautiful that most of the girls, so maybe it excites him, well I guess it's nothing serious, don't think about it” "Aku tidak tahu ... Anda punya muka cantik, lebih indah bahwa sebagian besar gadis, jadi mungkin itu menggairahkan dia, baik saya rasa itu tidak serius, tidak berpikir tentang hal ini"

How the hell can I not think of the fact that the guy I actually love, gets...Gets aroused...Okay I should really stop to think about it. Bagaimana mungkin aku tidak memikirkan fakta bahwa orang aku benar-benar mengasihi, mendapat ... Gets terangsang ... Oke aku benar-benar harus berhenti untuk berpikir tentang hal itu. God I'm going crazy damn that guy for being that confusing, damn you Jung yunho. Tuhan Aku akan gila si sialan karena itu membingungkan, sialan kau Jung yunho.

“But,remember, don't let yourself be carried away by him, you will be the only one hurt at the end, don't let him do what he wants okay ?” "Tapi, ingat, jangan biarkan diri Anda terbawa olehnya, Anda akan menjadi satu-satunya yang terluka di bagian akhir, jangan biarkan dia melakukan apa yang dia ingin baik-baik saja?"

“What does that mean ?” "Apa artinya?"

“It doesn't mean anything but...Be careful he's a dog, being a girl or a boy, he could rape you if he gets aroused” "Itu tidak berarti apa-apa tapi ... Hati-hati dia anjing, menjadi seorang gadis atau laki-laki, dia bisa perkosaan Anda jika ia mendapat terangsang"

“Of course I won't let him ! "Tentu saja aku tidak akan membiarkan dia! Beside you can say that but you two are dogs ! Selain Anda dapat mengatakan bahwa tetapi kalian berdua adalah anjing! Being a girl or guy...Should I recall you that none of you actually care ?” Menjadi seorang gadis atau pria ... Haruskah aku ingat bahwa ada di antara kamu benar-benar peduli? "

“What ? "Apa? And I was trying to help you out ? Dan aku berusaha untuk membantu Anda keluar? Come here you ungrateful absent minded guy !” He grabbed me by the arm, and started to tickle me. Ayo sini Anda guy berpikiran bersyukur tidak ada! "Dia meraih tanganku, dan mulai menggelitik saya.

“Changmin ! "Changmin! Stop already !!” I screamed between laughters, when I couldn't take it anymore, I felt a hand my arm. Stop sudah! "! Aku menjerit antara laughters, ketika aku tidak tahan lagi, aku merasa lenganku tangan.

“Why are you guys fooling around ?” A low voice asked, as a body brought me closer to him, I turned my head. "Mengapa kalian main-main?" Tanya Sebuah suara rendah, sebagai badan membawa aku lebih dekat kepadanya, Aku menoleh.

“Yunho, you're here already ?” I said surprised. "Yunho, kau sudah ada di sini?" Kata saya terkejut.

“Yes I'm so sorry if I interrupted the two of you” "Ya, aku minta maaf jika saya mengganggu kalian berdua"

“So did she ask you out ? "Jadi, dia meminta Anda keluar? Did you make an other girl cry ?” Changmin teased. Apakah Anda membuat gadis lain menangis? "Menggoda Changmin.

“No I actually said yes”...It felt like someone had shot me in the heart, it was surprising how each time I thought I couldn't feel worst, the pain just got harder and harder to bear. "Tidak, aku benar-benar mengatakan ya" ... Rasanya seperti seseorang telah menembakku dalam hati, itu mengejutkan bagaimana setiap kali aku pikir aku tidak bisa merasakan terburuk, sakit hanya mendapat semakin sulit untuk menanggung.

“But...You never actually went out with girls” I said, hearing my voice quivering dangerously. "Tapi ... Anda tidak pernah benar-benar pergi dengan gadis-gadis" kataku, mendengar suara saya bergetar berbahaya.

“I don't know I only wanted to give it a try” Give it a try ? "Saya tidak tahu aku hanya ingin mencobanya" Give it a try? Yes, I was a real fool to have actually thought, even for a minute, that he could have shared the same feelings. Ya, saya adalah seorang bodoh yang benar-benar nyata untuk berpikir, bahkan untuk sesaat, bahwa dia bisa berbagi perasaan yang sama.

“She is your type, or do you like her ?” I couldn't stop myself from asking further questions even if I knew that painful answers will follow. "Dia adalah tipe Anda, atau apakah Anda menyukainya" Aku tidak bisa menahan diri? Dari mengajukan pertanyaan lebih lanjut bahkan jika saya tahu bahwa jawaban yang menyakitkan akan mengikuti.

“No, it's just...I don't know she was kind of pushy, but is really cute, and gots big boobs” "Tidak, hanya saja ... aku tidak tahu dia agak memaksa, tapi benar-benar cute, dan gots boobs besar"

“Like I told you” Changmin said to me. "Seperti saya katakan" Changmin berkata padaku.

“And what exactly did you tell him ?” Yunho narrowed his eyes. "Dan apa sebenarnya yang Anda katakan padanya" Yunho menyipitkan matanya?.

“That you were a dog without any moral” "Bahwa kau anjing tanpa moral"

“What the heck ? "Apa sih? You bastard !” Too much, this was too much, I had to leave. Anda bajingan "Terlalu banyak!, Ini terlalu banyak, aku harus pergi.

“Hey Jaejoong ! "Hei Jaejoong! Where are you going wait !” I heard Yunho's voice behind me, his concern only hurt me more, reluctantly I turned around “To the art room I've just remembered something, I have to go sorry”. Di mana Anda akan menunggu "Aku mendengar suara Yunho di belakangku! Dan perhatiannya hanya menyakitiku lebih, enggan aku berbalik" Untuk ruang seni, aku baru saja ingat sesuatu, aku harus pergi "maaf.




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I ran, as fast as I could, putting as much distance as I could between our bodies, if I couldn't do it with my heart. Aku berlari, secepat mungkin, seperti jarak meletakkan sebanyak mungkin antara tubuh kita, jika aku tidak bisa melakukannya dengan hati saya.
This was too much, yes, he already had a couple of girlfriends, but at that time I wasn't aware of my feelings I only felt uncomfortable with them around. Ini terlalu banyak, ya, dia sudah memiliki beberapa pacar, tetapi pada waktu itu saya tidak menyadari perasaan saya, saya hanya merasa tidak nyaman dengan mereka di sekitar.

I can put up with the girls he fools around with to some extent, but, a steady girlfriend, this time, I'm not sure I'll... she's cute and she has big boobs too I wonder how much time will pass before he'll decide to do it to her ? Aku bisa tahan dengan gadis-gadis yang bodoh-main dengan sampai batas tertentu, tapi, pacar mantap, kali ini, aku tidak yakin aku akan ... dia lucu dan dia payudara besar terlalu aku bertanya-tanya berapa banyak waktu akan berlalu sebelum dia akan memutuskan untuk melakukannya padanya? I know he is fast with those things. Aku tahu dia cepat dengan hal-hal.

When I finally reached the art room, I enterred and closed the door beside me. Ketika aku akhirnya tiba di ruang seni, aku enterred dan menutup pintu di sampingku.
How does it feel like...To have a breast ? Bagaimana rasanya ... Untuk memiliki payudara?

“Jaejong does your chest hurts ?” I startled at the voice, and quickly put my hand off my chest. "Jaejong apakah dada Anda sakit" Aku terkejut di suara, dan cepat-cepat tanganku dari dada saya?.

“C-Club president ?I didn't know you were here !” "C-Club presiden saya tidak? Tidak tahu kau ada di sini!"

“Please, Jaejoong, call me Yoochun ! "Silakan, Jaejoong, panggil aku Yoochun! And I don't have class this afternoon, but, are you feeling sick?” Dan aku tidak ada kuliah sore ini, tetapi, apakah Anda merasa sakit? "

“No no ! "Tidak, tidak! I'm fine I just ran a little too fast and my heart was pounding hard” Aku baik-baik saya hanya sedikit berlari terlalu cepat dan hatiku berdebar keras "

“I see, well where are you with your assignement ?” Crap ! "Saya melihat, baik di mana kau dengan penugasan Anda?" Crap! the assignement, I completly forgot about it. penugasan, aku completly lupa. At the end of the year five students from each highschool in the district are to paint something. Pada akhir tahun dari masing-masing lima siswa SMU di kabupaten ini adalah untuk melukis sesuatu. I don't know why but they are all excpecting me to win that prize. Saya tidak tahu kenapa, tapi mereka semua excpecting saya untuk memenangkan hadiah itu.

“I don't even know what I should be drawing” I confessed "Saya bahkan tidak tahu apa yang harus saya menggambar" aku mengaku

“Anything is good as long as you want to draw there is no special theme, the only advise I can give you is to express your feelings in the painting, without hiding anything, put your heart in it” "Apa pun yang baik selama Anda ingin menarik tidak ada tema khusus, hanya saran saya dapat memberikan Anda adalah untuk mengekspresikan perasaan Anda dalam lukisan itu, tanpa menyembunyikan apa-apa, menaruh hati Anda di dalamnya"

“Right I understand” Well in fact I was even more confused after hearing such a blur advise, in addition in my current state of mind there is no way I can think of Art. "Benar saya mengerti" Yah sebenarnya aku bahkan lebih bingung setelah mendengar seperti kabur menasihati, selain dalam keadaan pikiran saya saat ini tidak ada mungkin aku bisa memikirkan Art.




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“Look ! "Lihat! That girl is so determined ! Gadis itu sangat ditentukan! Yunho has such a silly grin plastered on his face !” Junsu exclaimed, as he pointed to the new popular couple in the park. Yunho memiliki seperti seringai bodoh menempel di wajahnya "Junsu seru, saat ia menunjuk pasangan populer baru di taman!.

“Junsu, shut up” Changmin said. "JunSu, tutup mulut" kata Changmin.

“What ? "Apa? What the hell did I say again ?” Apa yang saya katakan lagi? "

“Just forget it, forget it” Changmin sighed. "Lupakan saja, lupakan saja" Changmin menghela napas.

As I looked at them through the window, I couldn't keep myself from thinking about what he said. Ketika saya melihat mereka melalui jendela, aku tidak bisa menahan diri dari berpikir tentang apa yang dia katakan. About how he looked so serious when he actually said it to me. Tentang bagaimana ia tampak begitu serius ketika dia benar-benar mengatakan itu padaku. I should just forget all about it, about what he said, about what I felf. Aku hanya harus melupakan semua itu, tentang apa yang dikatakannya, tentang apa yang saya felf. About everything. Tentang segalanya.

“Eh ? "Eh? Yunho isn't there anymore ! Yunho sudah tidak ada lagi! “ I heard Junsu exclaim or most likely shrieked. "Aku mendengar berseru Junsu atau kemungkinan besar menjerit.

“Guys !” We all turned around at the voice, his voice. "Guys!" Kita semua berbalik pada suara itu, suaranya.

“We're surprise that you left your sweetheart for plain looking guys like we are !” Changmin mocked. "Kami terkejut bahwa Anda meninggalkan kekasih Anda untuk mencari orang biasa seperti kita" Changmin mengejek!.

“Stop that please ! "Hentikan itu silahkan! She's acting all clingy just because we did it several times !” Dia bertindak semua menempel hanya karena kami melakukannya beberapa kali! "

“My god you already did it with her ?” Junsu said horrified. "My god Anda sudah melakukannya dengan dia?" Junsu kata ngeri.

“Don't look at me like that ? "Jangan menatapku seperti itu? She was the one that opened her legs !” Dia adalah orang yang membuka kedua kakinya! "

“Yes he's a dog like I said” Changmin nodded. "Ya dia anjing seperti saya mengatakan" Changmin mengangguk.

He already did it with her...He made love to her, he touched her, he kissed her, he went deep inside of her...Yes, the pain is really getting worser and worser each time. Dia sudah melakukannya dengan dia ... Dia bercinta dengannya, dia menyentuhnya, ia menciumnya, ia pergi jauh di dalam dirinya ... Ya, rasa sakit benar-benar mendapatkan waktu worser dan worser masing-masing.
I felt a sad smile appearing on my face, but quickly made it disappear, I couldn't let my feelings being shown. Aku merasa sedih senyum muncul di wajahku, tapi dengan cepat membuatnya menghilang, aku tidak bisa membiarkan perasaan saya sedang ditampilkan. I didn't have the right to do so. Aku tidak memiliki hak untuk melakukannya.

“Jaejoong ?” He called. "Jaejoong" disebut? Dia.

“Hmh ?” I snapped out of my daze, only looking at his eyes was painful. "Hmh" bentak? Aku keluar dari bingung saya, hanya melihat matanya adalah menyakitkan.

“Can you come with me to the bathroom ?” "Bisakah kau ikut aku ke kamar mandi?"

“What ? "Apa? Are you a child ?” Apakah Anda seorang anak? "

“Just come !” He whined, at his child-like tone, my face cracked into a smile, and I nodded. "Hanya datang" Dia merengek!, Mendengar nada suaranya seperti anak kecil, wajah saya retak tersenyum, dan aku mengangguk.

“So did you think about it ?” He asked on the way. "Jadi kau memikirkannya" Dia bertanya di jalan?.

“It ?” I repeated interrogatly. "It" ulang? Aku interrogatly.

“What ? "Apa? You forgot already ? Kau lupa sudah? You know...” He put his face close to my ear and whispered “ I told you I get turned on by you...right ?” God..that wasn't good his hot breath on me made me unable to think clearly. Kau tahu ... "Dia mendekatkan wajahnya ke telingaku dan berbisik" Aku sudah bilang aku dihidupkan oleh Anda ... benar? ".. Allah yang tidak baik napasnya yang panas pada saya membuat saya tak mampu berpikir jelas.

“So..what do you think ? "Jadi .. bagaimana menurutmu? Have you figured it out yet ?” I felt my face burning, be it with anger or embarassement. Apakah Anda figured it out yet "Aku merasa wajahku terbakar, baik dengan marah atau embarassement?.

“You're sexually harrassing me !” I yelled angrily. "Kau seksual melecehkan saya" Aku berteriak marah!.

“I was serious !” "Aku serius!"

“You told me not to think about it ! "Kau bilang tidak memikirkan tentang hal ini! So I didn't ! Jadi aku tidak! Did you make me come with you to talk about that ?! Apakah Anda membuat saya datang dengan Anda untuk membicarakan hal itu?! ” "

“Well yes” "Well ya"

“Shit you could at least have lied ! "Sialan kau bisa setidaknya telah berbohong! I'm leaving” Aku mau pergi "

Shit ! Sial! what the hell is wrong with that guy ! apa yang salah dengan orang itu! He tells me...stuff like that, and then gets himself a girlfriend, acts like nothing happened at all and here he comes asking me if I thought about it ?! Dia mengatakan padaku ... hal-hal seperti itu, dan kemudian mendapat pacar sendiri, bertindak seperti tidak ada yang terjadi di semua dan di sini dia datang meminta saya jika saya berpikir tentang hal ini?! I know I don't have the right to blame him or even to get mad, but he's such a jerk. Aku tahu aku tidak punya hak untuk menyalahkan dia atau bahkan marah, tapi dia seperti brengsek.




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“Yunho !” I called, but he just walked away, ignoring me. "Yunho" Aku memanggil, tapi! Dia hanya berjalan pergi, mengabaikan saya.

Goddamn ! I should be the one being angry !!...Should I have listened to him more seriously ? Sialan! Aku harus menjadi orang yang sedang marah !!... Haruskah aku mendengarkan dengan lebih serius? But what could I have answered, 'Don't worry I get turned on too' There is no way I can say that ! Tapi apa yang bisa saya menjawab, "Jangan khawatir aku menyalakan juga 'Tidak ada cara saya bisa mengatakan itu!

“Jaejoong are you all right ?” Changmin asked. "Jaejoong kau baik-baik saja?" Tanya Changmin.

“Yes, yes of course I am !” I smiled. "Ya, ya tentu saja saya!" Aku tersenyum.

“Did Yunho said things to you again ?” He asked, damn how can someone be that mighty ? "Apakah Yunho mengatakan hal-hal kepada Anda lagi" Dia bertanya, sialan bagaimana seseorang dapat menjadi yang besar? Since there was no use to lie, I nodded in agreement. Karena tidak ada gunakan untuk berbohong, aku mengangguk setuju.

“He got mad when I said I didn't think about it, but what does he want me to think of anyway ?” "Dia marah ketika aku berkata aku tidak memikirkannya, tapi apa dia ingin aku memikirkan itu?"

“I think he doesn't even understand what he's saying, don't you think it's rude to you and his girlfriend that he thinks about you when he's having sex with her ?!” "Saya pikir dia bahkan tidak mengerti apa yang dia katakan, bukankah tidak sopan kepada Anda dan pacarnya bahwa ia berpikir tentang Anda ketika ia berhubungan seks dengannya?!"

“What ?” "Apa?"

“I wasn't supposed to say that...” So why did you say it, it wasn't needed at all ! "Saya tidak seharusnya mengatakan bahwa ..." Jadi kenapa Anda mengatakannya, itu tidak diperlukan sama sekali!

“Did he say that to you ? "Apakah dia mengatakan itu padamu? He didn't tell me anything like that !” Dia tidak mengatakan apa-apa seperti itu! "

“Well, it's quite weird to say that to a friend isn't it ? "Yah, itu sangat aneh untuk mengatakan bahwa ke teman bukan? Knowing that he's not gay...And in fact it's actually weird to say that you get turned on by a guy, but I guess stuff like that happen frequently” Mengetahui bahwa dia bukan gay ... Dan sebenarnya itu benar-benar aneh untuk mengatakan bahwa Anda mendapatkan terangsang oleh cowok, tapi kurasa hal-hal seperti itu sering terjadi "

“Stuff like what ?” "Hal-hal seperti apa?"

“Among guys who belong to sport clubs, I heard it happened frequently to give handjobs to each other or to experience their first kiss...Well I guess it's just a phase, don't worry about it” Yes easier said than done. "Di antara orang-orang yang menjadi milik klub olahraga, aku mendengar hal itu terjadi sering memberikan handjobs satu sama lain atau pengalaman ciuman pertama mereka ... Well I guess itu hanya fase, jangan khawatir tentang hal ini" Ya lebih mudah diucapkan daripada dilakukan. Thank you very much. Terima kasih banyak.

“What are you guys doing ?” The both of us turned around only to face Yunho. "Apa yang kalian lakukan?" Yang kami berdua berbalik hanya untuk wajah Yunho.

“Jaejoong, Can I talk with you ?” Does he want to apologise ? "Jaejoong, Bisakah saya berbicara dengan Anda?" Apakah dia ingin minta maaf?

“Yes, let's go” We went out of the classroom, he took me by the hand and lead me further in the corridor until there was only the two of us present. "Ya, mari kita pergi" Kami keluar dari ruang kelas, ia mengambil tangan saya dan membawa saya lebih lanjut di koridor sampai hanya ada kami berdua sekarang.

“So what did you want to say ?” I asked. "Jadi, apa yang ingin Anda katakan?" Tanya saya.

“Well I really thought about it and...” Good, he's going to end things “ I want to try to sleep with you” "Well, aku benar-benar berpikir tentang hal itu dan ..." Bagus, dia akan hal-hal akhir "Saya ingin mencoba untuk tidur dengan Anda"

What ? Apa?